Tell ya~

Tell ya~
i gotta CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!!!
the tough year are waiting
i gotta go, go study
try harder
to reach my dream

no half way stopping,
straight going along
gogogogo!
ガンバッテ！

maybe I should take the JLPT test, well my mom suggested...
anyway, making my bio,math,english till the best!!
and try to get A1 for all subject
anyway, this midyear exam i may got all B4 or C5...haha=.=

GANBATTEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Soudesu-ne~

recently, I like saying this phrase----"Soudesu-ne~"

and...my best friend who sits besides me says---"stop it~, that is weird."

then I shock!

first a little angry, then sad,
dunno why, and we went to a little quarrel about this phrase.
(girls like to quarrel ne~especially ppl like me, unpatient)

haiz...if something i like got ignored...i'll be disapointed, mad or sad
maybe is tat my interest is really weired gua.....

ma~~genki!~ genki~!

Mask

What you see now may be unreal,
it may be an illusion.

There are people who are wearing mask, A Smiling Mask, when they are with you
But they may be wearing an Evil Mask, When they talk about you behind your ears
May be everyone are wearing their own mask, but it may be the other characteristics Mask, not the evil one...

You may think she is an angel, but her real is an Evil

The world are beautiful, pretty....
But human are ugly, disgusting....

By the way, there are nice and good people around me,
But I warned you to be aware of somebody,
somebody who have the Mask on their face, The Evil Mask

我要尝尽最苦与最乐！

昨天有个前辈告诉我
我不是小孩子了， 该多观察四周围
看看前辈们怎样工作的
学习学习，认真认真，不要再玩玩了
我自己也认为
脾气也该改一改
多留意周遭， 多顾虑别人
多想想因果， 独立点
自己看得还不够远，不够深入，学的也还不够多
人必须多思考，居安思危
人必须尽好自己的责任，本分
别人这样对你时先想想自己怎样对人
有人也曾告诉我
我太易信人，告诉我必须懂得保护自己
小时候，我们有父母保护，长大了就改以自己的力量保护自己
或许我的脑筋转得还不够快，或许我现在看到的一切都会幻灭
我要尝尽最苦与最乐！

There Deaths in my life

primary school year one
my only grandfather passed away before I can have any memory of him.

secondary school year two
my only great grandmother passed away,
maybe she cant remember me in her 10+ grandchildren and 20+ grand grandchildren
or maybe she can?

secondary school year three
an uncle who is like my dad passed away in a shock
when I go to the hospital, he is ald in a koma
this time, i cried a lot
his son, who is one year older than me, lost his father
and now he become the only man in his family,
thinking if my father suddenly leave me, i think i will cried for a long time
that is so sad.

That time, when that uncle passed away,
i knew that life is so short and you may suddenly leave the world.
nobody what will happen after we die.
Dying is scary but we must go through it in our life.
be born, getting old, sick, then die
life is so short.
William Shakespeare says that life is nothing but a walking shadow. it is a candle
i agree that is is a candle, but it is not a walking shadow
i wanna live my life colourful,live my life happily
doing this meaningful, doing things i like
and die satisfyingly .

that is what i think.

改掉改掉，发泄发泄

不行不行不行！！不能再这样下去！

总感觉自己越来越不对劲。
对这世界的厌恶感越来越重，开始有些怨气（笑）。
以前不是这样滴，生气的话，几个小时后就忘了为啥生气。
昨天还在众人面前发了个小脾气，
哎哟！ 自己的脾气真的是烂透了！
今天作了个测验，发现自己的不懂什么有些不平衡。
糟糕，烂透了！自己还说想当心理医生。
想了想，的确。
最近有些压力，都没发泄出来。
压着压着，什么毛病都出来了。
烦恼也有点多。
时间安排不好啦！
对自己的缺点不满意啦！
想要改掉缺点却无路可寻啦！
累啦！
闷闷不乐搞得我一点都不再开朗！（或许上了中学我从没开朗过？）

最近觉得自己怎么好像有点自大，有点骄傲？
改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉改掉
哟。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
突然好想去拜拜，去教堂，去远远静静的地方
调整下自己的心。

有些事，有些话，想说，说不出口，或不想别人知道。
收在心里的小秘密，让它跟着心跳，保留到心跳停止。

所以，接下来我要做的事就是：
发泄，发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄。

My friend my mini pig

this is a english to my other post which is in Chinese...so it goes like this--

i am Miss Jack, who bear the mini pigs,
my friends are all my dear mini pigs.

Mini pigs are my treasure,
i cry for them, laugh for them,
without them, my life is nothing but a lonely life.

Miss Jack lets the mini pigs free,
it can go anywhere it wants,
but please,
please don't leave me.

Oh~ pigs, pigs, my mini pigs,
i wanna hug you when i am sad,
i wanna play with you,
i wanna share all my happiness with you.

Oh~pigs,pigs my mini pigs,
i am not your master,
i just came to take care you,
i just came to protect you from the wolf who want to eat you!

So, so my mini pigs,
one day when we are not together,
please don't forget Miss Jack.
OR NOT I WILL COOK YOU AND EAT YOU!!

朋友是迷你猪~~

我把自己当牧猪人，把朋友当迷你猪。

朋友是迷你猪，
我为它喜为它怒，
没有它的陪伴，我会很寂寞，

我是牧猪人，
我的迷你猪是自由的，
它爱去哪就去哪，
但请别离我而去，

迷你猪啊，迷你猪~~
我爱向它撒娇，我爱向它发牢骚，
它不须随传随到，
但在我伤心时请陪伴我，让我抱抱。

迷你猪啊， 迷你猪~~
我可不是你的主人，
只是来牧你，在你需要我时出现，
保护你不被狼吃了，

所以迷你猪啊！
自由了可别忘了我这个牧猪人。
不然把你抓来吃了！！

牢骚二

哎
哟。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

还是很懊恼！！继续！！
或许朋友说的有些是对的，
所以我有在改啊，只是效果不怎么明显罢了
很多次了，做许多是之前，我都想了又想。
结果许多事都没做了，压了自己很久，
突然生活变得有点暗淡，失去了自己的色彩。
我是个很在意别人看法的人，但因为这样我也很幸苦。。。5555
是朋友不了解我呢，还是我不理解这个世界？
有时站在走廊，身旁没有一起走的朋友，就有些失落
容不进别人的世界，还是我没把我世界的门打开？
懊恼呀。。。。

happy go lucky is not happy, so all her luck is gone...

Black Friday的牢骚

wuahhhh......最近有些不顺利，
今天又是黑色星期五，2009年的黑色星期五有不少呢，
二月，三月和十一月。哎。。。真的，今天有点倒霉，昨天也是。

昨天，家里大停电，瓦斯也用完了。
回家没人没饭吃，又热死我了。
哎。。。

最近跟朋友也相处有些问题。
我不介意朋友不理解我说的话，
有时觉得我的言行莫名其妙，
有时觉得我幼稚（好像是经常），
这些我都知道，
这是应为我的思维跟他们不同，
看到的美丽可爱或许在他们眼里是奇怪幼稚，
看到的美好或许在他们眼里是莫名其妙，
这也是因为他们没有宽容的心接受不同方式的表达和言行。
说真的我现在莫名其妙的有点气。
我又不是山下智久，扬程玲，周杰伦。。。
他们奇怪的行为举止式风格，
我的就是幼稚无趣无聊，必须做到大家眼里的不幼稚，不莫名其妙！！
但我就是这样啊！！

（以上都是某少女的牢骚，别介意阿。。。）